Love dont cost a thing!

i love the guy i am in love with
he understands me,he cares me
they say love don't cost a thing
then how come it does

he says what u want,i'll get you whatever
i said i just need the love,that you already giving me
my love don't cost a thing
he said i don't agree,it so does

i couldn't understand,confused
he said wait..let me tell you
your love costs me many things
let me tell you..how it does

he took a tissue paper,sitting in the cafe
writing and saying "flowers and chocolates in every meeting for you
and if they are absent..its hard to see your face
thrice a month movies,once a month five star food
you say your love don't cost a thing
but other than these...nothing sooths your mood
lets not forget,i call you every night
you don't want me to hang up,till early morning
and if i don't agree,you just wanna start a fight
i pick you almost everyday from your place
you just don't realise that my car drinks petrol
instead of all,you want me to drop you
sitting in the cafe,sipping and eating..oh baby you
you just don't know how much that coffee will cost me
but still looking into my eyes
you say my love don't cost a thing!"

me,sitting just the way i was
embarrassed,upset,angry,guilty,agreeing yet smiling
wow!..oh boy you made me think!
i don't know whether you want me to pay from now
or what is it that made you say,whatever it was
all i know is that my love is unconditional
you-such a materialist!..but my love don't cost a thing

all you gave me is sleepless nights

and fear of losing you,day by day

but i never thought you would take things the other way!

your male ego hurts... never let me
pay or drive or call,now if you want me,
imagine,getting you chocolates and flowers!
is it all that matters to you,cant you see my love
now i know,my love don't cost a thing
but you my baby,were never in love!

astrology-makes you or breaks you??

If we open The Oxford dictionary,the word astrology is explained as the study of positions and movement of the stars and planets and the way that some people believe they affect people and events.This is just a definition which does explain astrology,but in the last 5 months I realised that astrology is much more than what the dictionary explains.It is one thing that if you indulge in,might make you or break you.but what I have gone through,I might not be very sure about the statement 'makes you or breaks you'.The right way I should put it is 'makes you or breaks you?'.I never really believed in stars,planets,astrology,etc.and i am not sure if i still do.So whats making me write this?The reason behind me writing a post(note:-my first post)on astrology is perhaps my dad and his belief in astrology.No,I am not trying to write anything against my father's belief,instead I am thinking whether the decisions made under the influence of an astrologer take you to the right track or not?even when you are not sure about it.

Since the 8Th grade,when kids are actually kids and have no idea of what they want from life or what life wants from them,I am sure I knew of what I wanted from my life and what I wanted to be.I always knew I wanted to do fashion designing and that too from the best-NIFT(National Institute of Fashion Design).Still I think of it,being a student of NIFT(wow!).My dad from the very first day was not too sure about it,but he never stopped me from doing something that I always wanted to do.So I did my 12Th,got the form,took classes(from IMS,again the best),gave the examination and even got selected for the second level.What could have made me more proud?!I heard that once cleared the first level,admission's not too difficult.I did not really prepare for the second level as I was not too sure of what it actually was.Anyhow,gave it but unfortunately,could not clear.Unfortunately.The reason why I am laying emphasis on this word is the reason why I am writing this post.The same happened when I gave my entrance for the Pearl Institute of Fashion,I could not clear the second level.

It was now time for my dad to finally react.As he believes in astrology,asked me to consult an astrologer.The first thing I asked myself and my dad was"why?".And I am still not sure if I have got the answer.Anyway,we consulted an astrologer.According to my 'kundali',as the astrologer said,fashion design or anything related to it,is not meant for me.My reaction-'WTF?what is he saying?'.Believing my art of good sketching and sense of fashion(hope not sounding pompous) and the appreciations I usually get,the astrologer did not make sense to me at all.He also said law or administrative jobs would do good for me,or I could say-I would do good in these.Again,how is that possible?being not too argumentative and loud,what makes him say that?Me,a lawyer,no way!My dad was quite surprised too and I thought consulting does not necessarily mean following,but within a day or two,while I was thinking and making preferences for some good fashion schools,my dad consulted at least two more astrologers!And to my surprise and bad luck,they suggested the same as the first astrologer did.

There was no chance I could escape out of it now,especially with my dad,who can quite easily believe to what one astrologer says,there was no point I could make him believe that I can do well in the fashion industry,after consulting 3.I never wanted to read those heavy and boring books,but I could not help my dad understand that.But with the help of my elder sister,who has worked as a consultant with the Chopra's,I managed to make my dad understand and agree that PR i.e.public relations could be a good administrative job,a white collar job.But my idea was not actually to study and do PR,but was to do mass communication where there is not much of a need to study hard and read heavy books.Well,this is what I initially thought.Hence,Bachelor of Mass Communication(BMC),JIMS-Jagannath Institute of Management Sciences.My dad's belief in astrology has changed my path completely.Its hardly been two months since I have joined and I have already started to participate and take interest(a little though) in the course.But there is a little part of me that always thinks-what if I was doing fashion?Something that I would have really enjoyed doin,infact loved it.That is the reason why I am still thinking whether astrology makes you or breaks you?I think being a BMC student and a habitual of report writing of almost everything you go through daily,has made me write my first ever blog!The question remains and I think the answer will only be known after three years of this course,astrology makes you or breaks you?