Monday, September 15, 2008

The right track

OK!..it's been a year!!that's right.one whole year since i have been writing.to start with,i would just like to say,for all those who have made this blog a success for me-the visitors,the readers and my friends,who just read it because i asked them to,thank you! if you have read my first post 'astrology-makes you or breaks you?!?!',then only,will you understand this one.so please,check out my first post and then come back to this one!


right!since you know what has happened a year back and what exactly was my,as they call it,'state of mind',this post could be taken as a sequel to the first one.but,i want to clear this to everybody,i am neither writing about astrology nor about my dad.


the year taught me a lot! i won't be saying that it was JIMS,but,it was surely my friends,my seniors and a few,i repeat,a few of my teachers who made me realise that probably i am not half as bad for mass communication,media and journalism.


in the beginning,i was very confused.so many questions in my mind-what am i doing here?!,why?!,what am i going to do?!,what about fashion?!,blah blah blah.....and of course,no answer! i was attending college just to experience a 'regular college life'.made some really good friends and was having fun with them.


i soon noticed my writing skill.won't say its the best,but i was always appreciated.one of the examples could be this very blog! in college,wrote a lot of of reports,press releases,quotes,articles etc. for a lot of events.i realised that i like to write and people like it when i do.i thought,maybe that's what has brought me here.i started taking print media as a serious career option.but,i don't know if i still do!!!


one fine day,my seniors announced that they are starting a student's theatre group.classes will be held every weekend,decent timings and will practice one play at a time.well,i thought it will be nice to come out of the house every weekend and do something i have always enjoyed doing-'nautanki!'.it seemed like a nice activity to do every weekend,so i was game for it.we,a group of 20 something people called The Creative Factory,used to meet at Father Agnel's School and practice.we had our voice modulation sessions,scream out,whisper,laugh,cry,etc. etc. and we practiced and almost completed one of the most talked about plays in the industry 'jis lahore nai vekhya,oh jamiya hi nai',by safdar hashmi.i was,since then,tagged as Hameeda Begum,one of the crucial characters of the play.got a lot of appreciations for that as well.soon,we did a lot of work professionally.street plays for Hindustan Times-i love Delhi carnival was the biggest achievement of all,which brought in popularity and success! it was a great feeling when people came to us after every show and congratulated us.i remember how people read the timings in the newspaper and showed up before time.some asked us to do it again and some said "you guys are great,i watched all your shows today!".all our collars up!we did a lot in college as well.The Creative Factory became a success! and now i can proudly say that i am a government recognised theatre artist(by the ministry of information and broadcasting).all this made me think 'how about theatre?!?!'.though,i am still crazy about it,but,making it a profession...i don't know.


my friends and seniors made a lot of movies and i became a part of them as well.since i enjoy acting,i,along with my friends,worked really hard.hence,siyah khoobsurati and parasite were really appreciated.also,intersecting lines,our next project has been shot successfully and will be soon premiered in college once edited.a few friends of mine want me to consider acting seriously and do something about it.but,again,how serious am i?!?!...i don't know.


i am always surrounded by aspiring directors,writers and editors.so,it has encouraged me to innovate new ideas.and since,my brain has an active thought process,i have written down certain concepts into scripts.i plan to make these scripts into short films by putting in some effort of direction.i won't say "i am appreciated" this time (lol) because i have not yet taken any step further,neither have i discussed it with anybody.though,i will soon.but,is direction or scripting my potential career?!?!...i don't know.


so,it's been a year.2 years are still to go.i still have a lot to experience and learn.i am happy.i am enjoying.i am content.but,the decision made,a year back-how well is that going?!?!...i don't know.so many questions in my mind-what am i doing here?!,why?!,what am i going to do?! blah blah blah.....but,i know i am on the right track because the question 'what about fashion?!',just doesn't exist!if you don't understand what it means...it means i have no regrets and that's what matters!!!